The misery of the One Day author…
Posted on Friday, October 28th, 2011It’s been a while since I’ve been on here. I was reminded of that on Tuesday, but this was the first time I’ve been able to get back on. Some of that has been pure procrastination, some of it was pure ire (I wrote a brilliant blog post and then my new system deleted it. My fault, but still annoying), and some of it was out of a need to decompress. Now, I’m back, I’m relaxed and I’m more certain than ever of what I want to do with my life.
Now that may make it sound like I was waffling a bit over my chosen path and I can assure you, that I wasn’t considering leaving writing. I hadn’t even gone to the point of wondering if I could make a living out of it. Those, in my mind, were foregone conclusions. One day, I will be good enough and I will begin making a living off of it. The thing that was starting to halt me was the first part of that sentence.
One Day
It’s a tiny phrase to have caused the amount of damage it was. I had started thinking of One Day as being far away, too far for me to worry about. In the meantime, I certainly had other goals. I began a critique group (Called the best name ever… A Bitch of Writers), I started showing my work to others, I’ve been learning how to edit (Painstakingly slow, it seems), and I had to get ready for my trip to SIWC (Surrey International Writers Conference).
The critique group has been so helpful. It’s really shown me the areas that I obviously need more work on. Mostly, these come down to description issues. I’m great at tension, but I have to really work to make any characters imaginable. Learning to edit has been really difficult, mainly because I realized that my teaching of this in school was not what I would consider adequate. As a student, my idea of editing was to write a rough draft, clear up a few of the spelling mistakes, and maybe a word choice before handing it in. Editing a novel, I’ve found, is just a wee bit more intense than that.
It was the trip to Surrey that really changed me though. This year I took my writing (and ask me in person sometime about the “life-changing-field-trip-with-Zuko”) hoping for the same glee I received last year when CC Humphrey’s reviewed my work (Mr. Humphrey’s, if you ever find yourself reading this, ask me about my first chapter now! It’s awesome now that it’s written). Instead I found the classes containing a lot of the information that I learned last year and felt myself ahead of the game.
Nervously so, of course. One Day doesn’t leave room for me to be suddenly understanding what the instructors are teaching. In fact, thinking myself ahead of the game felt downright wrong. The sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach as I handed Wendy Roberts my work this year was horrible. When she asked if this was my first book, my heart sank. Still, I continued on bravely, simply answering “Yes” instead of the Is it that obvious comment that I was thinking to myself.
Imagine my shock when she told me that my work was much better than most first books she’s seen. She then asked me point blank if I was querying. I was stunned and when I said, no, she told me to get on with it. Ivan Coyote reinforced the knowledge later that day when I heard her tell a story about an old student of hers who wasn’t published and was terrified of being rejected. She had to tell her, “I know this is going to hurt, but you’re already not published.”
I decided that day that perhaps One Day had come. Still, I was stunned when I spoke with my Brian Hades (of Edge Publishing) for my pitch appointment, and he nodded, asking for a partial. Once again, it was reinforced at lunch, when I spoke with Donald Maass (Of Donald Maass Literary Agency) and he took my name and told me that he would tell one of his agents to keep an eye out for a partial from me. Serendipity, Coincidence, Whatever you want to call it, I was hit with it this conference.
It floored me when I realized just how much these two words, One Day, had been holding me back. Now, just as before, I know what I want to do but for the first time, I think I see a light at the end the of the tunnel. I need to finish crafting a synopsis and a query (any good suggestions for books on How To would be appreciated) and then I’ll begin the next stage of my journey. I think, I may finally be ready for that next step.
What about you? What did you learn about yourself in the last year?
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